Note to God

If I wrote a note to God,

I'll ask Him why he makes things go so,

Why babies with bright futures aren't given a chance,

Yet the parents with financial and emotional unbalance are loaded with infants.

I'll tell Him about the people who's left me,

Those so precious and true,

Tell Him how I miss them,

How I wish that He didn't call them back so soon.

If I wrote a note to God

I'll ask my Father to ease

The pain of my loved ones

To make a way,

To give us strength

To help us through the day.

I'd ask him to heal the wounded hearts

Of those so dear to me.

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

I'd say give us strength to make it through

Help us find love cuz love is overdue

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

If I wrote a note to God

I'll plead Him to grant us some faith to carry on

Give us hope when all hope seems gone

Cuz it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road of life we are on

Cuz we cant do it on our own

If I wrote a note to God.

im back!

Yes Yes Yes time to menge-blog again!

Saw facebook through the computer screen for the first time in a month just now.

And guess what? 

Surprise, surprise.

Things to add to my post!

First things first.....

*thunderous claps* *drum roll*

CONGRATULATIONS Ivory Sim Wang Chin on getting accepted to the BRATs!!!!

i shall be seeing you soon then, no? :)

Next thing....

Seems like you two pakistani dogs decided to be 'Funky' and 'Cool', eh? Lemme tell you. "Jayz and Heera" are uncool in a MILLION BILLION ways, ass! "Jayz", *vomit, screech, icked* it's so GAY of you to type with a gazillion dots per sentence. HELLO. People want words, not dots. Idiots. Oh, by the way, giving people advice on love life? *gasp, splutter, choke* You've never even dated, you still think girls are disgusting and boobs are not to be looked at. Do you even own an ounce of testosterone? Ever shaved yet? Kid. and YOU, "Heera"!!  *vomit, screech, icked* why so excited when someone dates someone? PAPPARAZI ASS. I hate you, motherfucker of a mandul terrorist ass. *snort snort*

Enough of them...

NEXT. "THE" cwidak b*tch made facebook! eew. EEEWW. major disgust. you ruin the whole point of being in facebook, yo. Oh, I dare you to post your picture. Ha. You fucking slut of a backstabber.

hmmmmm.

I got 65 in add maths today.

*THUNDEROUS CLAPS*

thank you, thank you!!! muahahahhaaaa.

oh oh. and the S**PID F***ING WASHING MACHINE HAS DIED. damn you.

yes yes, i know. *wash mouth* No more foul words.

am currently in Swinburne. Playing comp. OBVIOUSLY. My leg hurts. bah.

Lodge's becoming bearable now. The workload, i mean. Getting used to that. Hahaha. Mrs. Ngu's nice. :)

Tuesday night's my special "GIRL TALK" therapy with Jaomi Tay. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAAA. *kian leennggg~*

gotta go now.

gotta look for ************************************************* (censored in case you who i am about to play pranks on reads this)

thank you. thank you.  thank you very much.

*elvis presley bow*

ha.

xoxoxoxoxo

Uneducated Illiterates

It just amazes me how some supposedly "best student" of one of the "accredited English language oriented school" with very "educated" doctor parents NOT know the difference between the word UNEDUCATED and ILLITERATE.

PLEASE, for GAWD'S SAKE, LOOK IN THE DICTIONARY before COUNTERING MY DISSINGS! This is BECAUSE:

1. I am a PROFESSIONAL disser.
2. I have the much-sought-after SARDONIC ATTITUDE the size of a MOUNTAIN.
3. Not to mention a tongue as sharp as a SAMURAI.
4. I am also equipped with DEAD SET HARD HEART which does not allow any pity or compassion on lower-life beings like you.
5. I am blessed with more than triple of your INTELLIGENCE.
6. Most importantly, I am highly regarded as one of the best English Language speaker in my ex-school, which is your current miserable slum of an institute, and I, unlike you, EARN THAT TITLE THROUGH MY OWN APTITUDE, unlike you, who got that title because I left. 

How lame can you be, I ask you?

Please, for the sake of all sardines in the world, how low can you go?

Bringing my parents into your childish, senseless retaliation to my very intelligible argument?

For the sake of YOUR English teachers, how stupid can you be?

Proudly proclaiming to the whole wide world that I am the stupid one because I used uneducated and illiterate in one sentence?

Let me explain to you in SIMPLE, STANDARD 1 ENGLISH (for ages 6 and below), the meaning of ILLITERATE and UNEDUCATED.

Illiterate - ignoramus. (DO NOT TELL ME YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS)

Uneducated - not having a good education.

An uneducated person can be literate.

An illiterate person can be an educated one.

SO PLEASE. Get your facts right before telling others that YOU are teaching ME that UNEDUCATED and ILLITERATE means the same thing. They are two different terms.

And also, please, for the sake of mankind, use proper punctuation! "i'm teachin someone the proper usage of the word uneducated and illeterate......some people just dont look before they leap.....best student..they call themselves....hahahhahahah..its funny.....!...lolx" does NOT mean anything!

Mistake no. 1: Teaching is spelled with a "g" at the end.

Mistake no. 2: Uneducated and illiterate are TWO words. Plural, not singular.

Mistake no. 3: Illiterate is NOT spelled illeterate.

Mistake no. 4: Wrong usage of idiom. The idiom "look before you leap" does not apply to this sentence.

Mistake no. 5: "best student...they call themselves..." PLEASE! You are not writing a song lyrics, nor a poem. Use commas instead of fullstops.

Mistake no. 6: "hahahahha..its funny....! lolx" 3 repetitive meanings. Lolx is redundant.

This is what you should have written. "I'm teaching someone the proper usage of the words uneducated and illiterate. some people just don't think before they write! best student, they call themselves. hahahahah, it's funny!"

I have not forgiven you yet for what you did toward Aisha and I last year. That was so low of you, asshole. You're just one of those fucking bitches who's power crazy and craves for attention from all species, regardless male or female.

Thank you for making me write this very long blog post, my ego now is elated to the point of Pinocchio-sized nose because I spotted and corrected you in every way possible. Nevertheless, I shall not decrease my level of hatred towards you after today.

May you stew over your lack in the English Language, and strive to improve in order to actually live up to your now-meaningless title of one of the best English speakers in your very useless despondent school.

Regards,

Charine Pakpahan

STUPID DiGi

shoot.

what's wrong with da line today?? dammit.

plh org manas jak.. sigh.

"digi - widest coverage" konon.

been sending msgs since wad,  7 am today and almost half of those not delivered.

padahal in Kuching jugak those ppl. cis.

WORK HARDER DIGI! or i'd just resort to using public phones. sigh.

Networking Sites.

• First rule of Myspace is, no one talks about Myspace. Ever. Unless the conversation goes:

      "Hey, do you remember Myspace?"

      "No."

• If it's one of your Facebook friends' birthday, and you don't write happy birthday on their wall, then there is no point in continuing to be friends with them.

• "Maybe Attending" is the new "Not Attending".

• At least half of the pages you are a fan off should be ironic and/or male chauvinism.

• It is your responsibility as their Facebook friend to tag them in any photo they appear in, no matter how far in the distance they are or how big a part of their body is shown - unless they look decent. Then the aforementioned responsibility forfeits.

• If you can say it in less than 140 characters it's probably not that interesting - so go right ahead and tweet it.

• You should be followed by at least one Russian girl who links to malicious websites. If this isn't the case you are doing something wrong.

• You should always aim to have more followers than you are following, as it is this ratio that determines your coolness. 

• Making your own #-tag should be done on a regular basis to ensure your followers that you get how twitter works. 

• Unfortunately the social norms of AOL were lost when the great library in Alexandria was set on fire in 48 B.C. Which, coincidentally, is also around the time you should have stopped using AOL.

• If you are going to upload videos, vlogging is mandatory.

• If you watch a video you should ALWAYS rate it 5 stars - even if you didn't like it. The people went through a lot of trouble making these videos and the least you can doshow a bit of respect.

Re: "I Want to Speak to Your Manager"

in reply to sHusHu's post entitled "I Want to Speak to Your Manager"....

When a customer says that, BEWARE, for he might say

" ma'am, your ass looks hot "

Worse still, a SHE might say

" ma'am, your ass looks tight "

HAHAHAHAHHAHAAA.

Jia you, sHusHu!!!

kuPii waiting. and will fulfil kuPii's part. :D

xoxoxo

HELL explained. :D :D

HELL EXPLAINED

BY A CHEMISTRY STUDENT

The following is an actual question given on a University of Arizona chemistry mid term, and an actual answer turned in by a student.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.

One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving, which is unlikely. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. There fore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.
Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, 'It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,' and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct..... ...leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting 'Oh my God.'

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+.

 

:)) :)) :))

NEW rules!

These should be the rules of the real world.

New Rule: Stop saying that teenage boys who have sex with their hot, blonde teachers are permanently damaged. I have a better description for these kids:.... lucky bastards.

New Rule: If you need to shave and you still collect baseball cards, you're gay. If you're a kid, the cards are keepsakes of your idols. If you're a grown man, they're pictures of men.

New Rule: There's no such thing as flavored water. There's a whole aisle of this crap at the supermarket, water, but without that watery taste. Sorry, but flavored water is called a soft drink. You want flavored water? Pour some Jack Daniels over ice and let it melt. That's your flavored water.

New Rule: The more complicated the Starbucks order, the bigger the asshole. If you walk into a Starbucks and order a "decaf grande half-soy, half-low fat, iced vanilla, double-shot, gingerbread cappuccino, extra dry, light ice, with one Sweet-n'-Low and one NutraSweet," ooh, you're a huge asshole.

New Rule and this one is long overdue: No more bathroom attendants. After I zip up, some guy is offering me a towel and a mint like I just had sex with George Michael. I can't even tell if he's supposed to be there, or just some freak with a fetish. I don't want to be on your web cam, dude. I just want to wash my hands.

New Rule: Stop sending me that pop-up ad for Classmates.com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them! Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days: mowing my lawn.

New Rule: Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chilli. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Trout? Luckily, it was only a finger! If it was a whole hand, Congress would have voted to keep it alive.

New Rule: Just because your tattoo has Chinese characters in it doesn't make you spiritual. It's right above the crack of your ass. And it translates to "beef with broccoli." The last time you did anything spiritual, you were praying to God you weren't pregnant. You're not spiritual. You're just high.

New Rule: Competitive eating isn't a sport. It's one of the seven deadly sins. ESPN recently televised the US Open of Competitive Eating, because watching those athletes at the poker table was just too damned exciting. What's next, competitive farting? Oh wait. They're already doing that. It's called "The Howard Stern Show."

New Rule: I don't need a bigger mega M&M. If I'm extra hungry for M&Ms, I'll go nuts and eat two.

New Rule: If you're going to insist on making movies based on crappy, old television shows, you have to give everyone in the Cineplex a remote so we can see what's playing on the other screens. Let's remember the reason something was a television show in the first place is the idea wasn't good enough to be a movie.

New Rule: No more gift registries. You know, it used to be just for weddings. Now it's for babies and new homes and graduations from rehab. Picking out the stuff you want and having other people buy it for you isn't gift giving, it's the white people version of looting.

New Rule: When I ask how old your toddler is, I don't need to know in months: "27 Months." "He's two," will do just fine. He's not cheese. And I didn't care in the first place.

credits to www.funny.com

:D

Windows of the Soul

 

yes.. that's exactly how i've been feeling the whole week.

the eyes ARE the windows of the soul. 

and i've been seeing red. red and just a lil' sad.

:)

oh well....

Today was...........

Hmm.. I just realized. It's been quite a while since I sang you to sleep, sHusHu. kuPii do it tonight? Gonna study..

Exams are asses. Blahh. Gonna have physics and chemistry tomorrow. Aiming for a pass. HAAHAHAHAHA! As Lynn puts it: The older we get, the Lower we aim. It used to be getting PERFECT scores back then in primary school. Come early secondary, we started aiming for A's. 70s-80s. Come Form 4, we HOPE we can manage a pass. Hahahaha. Sucks..

Today was weird. Got so little sleep, then when I tried to open the room door to take a shower, I appearantly blacked out. Not that I remembered. When i open my eyes could feel my body all numb and my brain blurr2. Hahahaha. I still went to school tho. For the sake of taking exams. Guai right... =))

Trying to understand physics now. Inertia, Momentum, Scalar & Vector and all that crap. Sigh..

Ka eLLa n mBa aYu coming in tomorrow!! YAY~!!! Gonna bully them into buying me Starbux and such. Hehehehehe..

Cheers~

The Conclusion..

12 hours..

66 pills..

and 1 glass of wine later....

I'm still here. I will be here from now on. I changed my mind, I'm not a coward. I will ACE my fears. Thank you my baby sHusHu for making me realize this. I love you honey. Love Love Love you.

xoxoxoxoxo

 

~ kuPii sHusHu ~

One night away..

Dearest sHasHa..

  Hey honey :) my sHusHu honey.. Guess the kuPii_sHusHu 90deg Inc. will never work out now, eh? :) I'm sorry i couldn't keep my part of the pinky pwomish with a kish.. Baby, u take care okay.. I love you so much.. It's okay that I had to go on my own terms, baby i don't blame you. I dont.. Remember your promise to him. Keep it. Please.

  Baby, thanks for everything okay.. It truly was Lady Luck being real extra generous on me the day we became friends :) Thank you for the great weekend honey, thank you for the friendship, thank you for the love you gave, thank you for caring, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for always being there for me, for always sticking up to me, teaching me, loving me, entertaining me, caring for me. Thank you baby. I love you.

  Honey, you get well soon okay.. I know the operation will work out. I know it will. You keep holding on and wait for it okay? Wait for the reward that comes. It'll come soon. I guess it wasn't me, nor him, nor the boys. Something better's on its way deary, you just wait okay?

  sHusHu dear, go for your dream alright? I know you can make it. You're strong, baby. I love you, despite all I did, all I've done to you. I love you deary, you're my BFF. Always and Forever.

  All those dates, those period of times we bookmarked, cherish it ya..? Remember me sometimes, honey.. Please?.. Especially 02.11.2009. :) and yes, last weekend. i LOVED it honey, and you know why. Only you know.

  Remember I Love You.

Lynn,

  Giiiiiiirrrlll it's been great knowing you!! Be good aite, study hard!! SLEEP TIGHT and i mean it :) hehehe.. and hey, do some soul searching aite. You need it. HAHAHAHA i'm one to talk. LOL. Anyway, do take care, xoxoxoxo!

Ivory n Mich,

  Thanks so much for always being there for me, dears. For making me get A in Science for PMR n UPSR (ivory) and for teaching me add maths! (Michie)  Love you both, study hard for SPM!!

  Ivory, you'll get into BRATs. You're like this writer, brimming with talent!! Love your stories!! Keep writing dear, don't give up on your studies okay? You'll make it :)

  Jie, sorry didn't get the chance to go eat pijja with you :) Watch your food deary, not too much cheesecakes!! Hahahahaha..

Love you both dears, mwaaahhhxx!!

Tyng,

  Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyy, u gotta love ANAT and i mean it!! hahahahahaa. don't simply jab ur patients okay, nurse? Scared la i.. hehehehe.. You rock when you're driving, girl!!! The tyng we all know *TRANSFORM* when behind the wheels. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAA!! Keep loving the roundabouts, drive safe! Love ya, cutie!! :D

Mba Ayu,

  Dear, never give up. Go for your dreams. You deserve better :) love you. love you. love you.

Ka eLLa,

  Words cant describe how grateful I am to have a sis like you, darling. You're vintage, you're unique, you're one-of-a-kind. You're fantastic, you're crazy, you're a genius, you're everything!! Don't worry what they say dear, you're talented. I love your music. Don't sleep so late at night honey, eat properly!~ i Luph you~

Mum & Dad,

  I'm sorry I didn't turn out as planned. I'm not smart, I'm not religious, I'm not even normal! I failed where I should have aced, I'm sorry you had to have a child like me. I guess it was wrong on your part to send me away from home at such a young age. You don't even know me. How could you have known I'm someone who likes you both more being around physically? That it would've helped my mental growth to be with you? No, Grandma and Grandpa can't replace you. They're not my parents. You both are. I didn't have a childhood. I dont know my parents. I know what the world knows about you, but nothing more. Ask Edi, ask Ka eLLa. You don't know how much I used to cry wanting to go home. Guess you'll never know. Nevertheless, thank you for giving me a chance to live. I love you as much as I can love a familiar stranger. Do take care.

Edi,

  Be a good boy. Study hard. Don't waste that brain of yours. Lose weight! You're gonna be this tall, dark and handsome guy one day :) hehehe. we hope. take care lil' bro, lots of love..

God forbid

Lots of love,

eYiN~

To the Homework brood...

*turning REBELLIOUS STUDENT mode ON*

Dear homework, 

  You have really let yourself go over the years. In kindergarten, I loved when you were slim and petite...but now... you should really go on a diet.

xoxoxo, eYiN

 

We Need More Students Like This!

 

say NO to HOMEWORK!

 

it causes SEVERE brain damage.

so PLEASE. support the movement of the Student Ministry. say NO to HOMEWORK.

-this is crucial to ensure that our generation SURVIVES to see our grandchildren-

THANK YOU.

cheers~

100 days...

WE'VE ALMOST REACHED 100 DAYS!! *applause applause* *thunderous claps*
lets do a countdown aite?
thats EIGHT (8) down!!
fuyoh~~

dyou know how crazy it is living this way. how tiring. how painful. dyou know how hurting it is to sleep, thinking ur still there, and waking up to know that you're gone? dyou know i hate those emails of yours? do you? please consider. thanks. i love you.

i ' v e A C E D m y F E A R S

The past few nights spent talking with cHiBbz sHasHa made me think, review and curse n swear scrutinize my choices.

Have decided to change the blog's name from UNDEFINED to i ' v e A C E D m y F E A R S cuz i'm not undefined anymore - i've made choices that helps me fight the tides of life. Note that instead of i ' v e F A C E D m y F E A R S i decided to name it i ' v e A C E D m y F E A R S. This is of course, because i've not only FACED the fears i have, i have ACED them too.


Without realizing, it's already the middle of February. OMGOSH. i'm gonna turn 16 soon. NOT a happy thought, i tell you! HAHAHAHA. Closer to the age of an 8-5 routine and bla3. Not that I'm aiming to get an 8-5 job. NO way. Gonna live my life to the oh-so-not-ordinary way even after passing F5.

WHO WANTS TO BE NORMAL?

Not me.

Currently waiting for cHibBz sHasHa to wake up, get home, take a shower, and get well enough to talk2 with me. Miss her :)

xoxoxo

To Realize...

To realize The value of a sister:
Ask someone Who doesn’t have one.

To realize The value of ten years:
Ask a newly Divorced couple.

To realize The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize The value of one year:
Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.

To realize The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has Given birth to a premature baby.

To realize The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize The value of one-second:Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has
Won a silver medal in the Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend
Lose one.

sHasHa

hey baby girl..
how u doing hmm?.. everything okay?

darling..
know that i love you okay?
whenever things go wrong, when they treat u bad, when they give u hell, know that i still love u.
and dear?
keep being the patient loving person u are.
cuz life's like a wheel. u'll be happy soon baby dear ya..
i love you.
remember the notebook.

:)

xoxoxoxo
eYiN

WHEEEEEE!!

CNY CNY SEE-EENNN-WWAAIII!!!
hahahaha.. not tat am gonna go around collecting $$ or eating my heart out.
NOOOOO!!
gonna spend CNY studying my ass off!!
quite amused by it..
hmm.
hoping n praying tat sha'll be able to come over. *cross fingers*

LIFE IS LIKE A BLACK MAN'S LEFT FOOT
it ain't RIGHT,
and it ain't FAIR.

:D

arrgghh..
got sick again today..
bladi dammit.. stupid immune system..
huff..